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Let Them React First

In the coming weeks, Early Action and Early Decision letters will arrive from colleges. Applicants will anxiously hover over mailboxes and recheck email. When the messages arrive, some will feel on top of the world, while others will feel crushed. For moms and dads, this is a Helicopter Parenting Moment, waiting to happen.

I’ve experienced both sides of the application process. In recent years, I’ve been the parent offering support to my three children as they filled out the Common App, wrote supplemental essays, gathered transcripts. I also vividly remember my own application process decades ago, when my first response was a resounding rejection — leaving me to wonder if any college, any place, any time, would ever want me.

When my children began the process of applying to college, I surprised myself. I found myself thinking not of SAT scores or teacher recommendations, not of my own application experience. Instead, my thoughts turned to the neighborhood park where my first child played. When he was born, I knew absolutely nothing about parenting. I had never babysat, never changed a diaper, never prepared a bottle. When he began to walk, I was terrified as he careened happily, delighted with his newfound autonomy. He walked constantly, and he fell constantly. Each time he crashed, my adrenaline spiked – until one day at the playground, a more experienced mom gave me a priceless piece of advice.

We sat on a wooden bench as her daughter navigated the swings, and my son trotted across a stretch of sand. Abruptly, he tripped over a grain and sprawled. I jumped up…but so did he. He hopped to his feet and continued forward, intent on his mission. I backed down, trying to steady my breathing, and this mother turned to me. We had never met before, but she smiled with a world of understanding and said four of the wisest words I’ve ever heard: “Let him react first.”

We love our children with a bond that defies measurement. Those feelings never lessen, even as our kids become adults. But clear emotional boundaries are a vital part of our connection. Their triumphs and victories belong to them, not to us. Their disappointments and failures belong to them as well. They need our support, but they also need our perspective.

As we enter the holiday season and the new year, many families face the next milestone: early action and early decision acceptances and rejections. A gigantic gravitational force called Helicopter Parenting is lurking, ready to suck moms and dads into the fray. If we don’t hold our ground, then our over-involvement can fill the space, pushing our children’s reactions into a corner. Our daughters and sons may feel triumphant, defeated, or possibly something entirely unexpected, something all their own. Whatever they feel, their rejections and acceptances belong to them, not to us.

Let them react first.


Amy Kaufman Burk is a novelist, blogger and mother of three grown children. Amy wrote her first novel, Hollywood High: Achieve The Honorable, in reaction to seeing gay students bullied in high school. Her second novel, Tightwire, follows a rookie psych intern through her first year of training. Amy blogs on a variety of subjects including parenting, LGBTQ+, gender equality and a Rolling Stones concert. She also collaborates with educators who include her books in their classroom.

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Wild Horses And Tiny Dancer

I was barely in my teens when I first heard the song “Wild Horses”, and I was stunned. I had discovered rock music a few years before, but this was different in a way I couldn’t define. I bought the album Sticky Fingers, and played it hundreds of times, trying to puzzle out this new palette of unfamiliar feelings — visceral, full-body, gut-level. Finally, I understood: I was taking my first steps into adolescence, letting go of my childhood.

A few weeks ago, more than four decades later, I went to my first Rolling Stones concert. Forty-thousand people joined me, filling NC State’s football stadium. Our seats were on the field — close enough to clearly see the stage and the long catwalk into the audience. Gigantic screens showed Mick Jagger’s sweat in the North Carolina humidity, Keith Richards’ fingers as he owned the guitar, Ronnie Wood’s neon red shoe laces, Charlie Watts’ eyes as he merged with his drums to become one instrument.

The Stones took the stage, and instantly held the audience with a power that defied reason. Like his voice, Jagger’s movements have always been completely wrong. He’s jerky and slithery, grotesque and contorted. His presence should be a disturbing mistake. Instead, it’s a work of art.

Jagger, 71 years old, wore a black sequined jacket. He threw off a shoulder, shrugged it back on, tore it off entirely. Next, a shiny orange top, with a black spidery design, which he also tossed. Underneath was a clingy, black shirt. He jerked his shirt up slightly, then dropped it back down. He should have looked ridiculous, cringe-worthy embarrassing, but he hit it exactly right. Any more skin – the performance would have been a joke. Any less – Mick Jagger wouldn’t have been Mick Jagger.

Standing with my family on that hot summer night, I found myself thinking of another concert, many years ago. I was 17, in Los Angeles, when I saw Elton John at Dodger Stadium. That concert marked a rare adolescent turning point – rare because even in the throes of teen angst, I understood the importance of that pivotal moment. I stood with the people who had been my closest friends. We were at a juncture, about to separate on divergent paths. They would remain together, and I would set out on my own. Our breach was already in motion, and as Elton John walked onstage, I was sharply aware that this concert would mark the end of our time together, that our roads into adulthood needed to branch.

Throughout my childhood, I had watched the Dodgers play baseball from the stands, but I had never before stood on the field. I planted my feet, trying to find a new equilibrium, watching my friends dance. They were strongly bonded and at that point, I barely registered in their thoughts. I had already accepted that when I walked away, I wouldn’t be missed. I remember smiling at Elton John’s glittery outfits, amused by the mega-flash, surprised I could smile when my social world was about to crash. I wondered if I’d always associate Elton John’s music with loss.

He finished a set, and the audience went wild. But instead of launching into the next number, he stood quietly and in response, I felt myself turn quiet inside. An expectant hush swept through Dodger Stadium, and Elton John spoke. He said he was going to perform one of his personal favorites, a song often overlooked. He placed his hands on the keyboard, and the opening notes of “Tiny Dancer” filled the arena.

“Tiny Dancer” tells the story of a transporting love in a day-to-day reality. The music is simultaneously peaceful and charged, tender and edgy. Elton John’s voice blended with the piano, then pushed against the keyboard, soaring to new levels. As I listened, I suddenly understood what drew me to Elton John’s music. Unlike most singers, he didn’t treat his voice as the melody, and the piano as his back up. Instead, his voice and his piano were in a relationship, life partners, an intimate tapestry of blending, clashing, moving apart, reconnecting. And strangely, with that understanding, something shifted within me. I breathed deeply, and took a firm step away from the group — my first step into adulthood.

Decades later, on a different field 3,000 miles from Dodger Stadium, I stood strong and steady in a way I could never have imagined at 17. The Stones didn’t play “Wild Horses”, but they didn’t need to. I carry that song within me, next to “Tiny Dancer”. The Stones finished their encore, and acknowledged the back-up singers and musicians. Finally, the four band members stood alone: Mick Jagger, Keith Richards, Ronnie Wood, Charlie Watts. Four friends, lives intertwined, who created a new frontier of sound. As they stood with their arms around each other’s shoulders, I turned to look into the audience. Of course, people clapped and shouted, but many also cried. I wonder which first-steps in their lives were linked to the songs we heard that night, moving them to tears.

“Wild Horses” and “Tiny Dancer” mark two first-steps in my personal history. Like everyone, I carry hundreds of first-steps, each attached to a different song. I wonder where my next first-step will take me, and which song I’ll carry deep within, for the rest of my forever. Everyone has a first-step, a story, and a song. This is one of mine.


Amy Kaufman Burk is a therapist-turned-author in Chapel Hill, North Carolina. Amy’s first novel, Hollywood High: Achieve The Honorable, follows Caroline Black through tenth grade, in a school with students who speak over forty languages. The story deals with adolescent sexuality, racial and economic diversity, the power of friendship. Amy’s second novel, Tightwire, follows a fictional psychotherapy from three perspectives — the rookie therapist scrambling to build a treatment — the patient struggling to heal — the supervisor guiding the young therapist through the complex emotional terrain of her first case. This novel was written to support same-sex parents, to fight the stigma of mental issues, and with deep respect for the human capacity to heal.

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